I almost missed out on a gift a such intense beauty, due to my fear of being alone. While, my fear of being alone is an interesting topic and well worth the introspection, it is not the topic of this post, today.
This evening, I went (in spite of myself) to this treasure of a little place. I pulled into the parking lot and sat for a few moments. As I stepped out of the car, I felt a little strange, where was I suppose to go, what path, which direction? The sun was setting, I decided to not waste any more time and just start, after all there wasn't really a wrong decision and so what if there was.
I came across a little bench and sat for awhile, I wanted to write, I wanted to take pictures, I wanted to sketch, but no, I was just still. Still, with myself in the quiet chill of the evening as the sun was setting and the clouds were building and the animals singing. After a while, I continued along the path and discovered a little treasure nestled in the bushes and more in the tress and more in the little valleys and even more on the hills.
My delight grew with each new discovery....and I could not help the tears that began to form and the little gasps that would occasionally escape. I wondered along the rest of the path and back to my car. I knew I would be back and I knew it would be soon.
As I drove home, I wondered why it was that I was afraid, and decided to tackle that another day.
I also decided, I would allow myself to be selfish. I am not sharing this gift with anyone, so please do not ask that of me...this one is just for me. My, little Sanctuary for my soul.....
Thank you for this beautiful, intensely personal gift.....
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